Tuesday, January 27, 2004

Christmas Balls

When the divorce was finally over and the house was sold we each moved into our respective apartments with the belongings that were now legally ours and ours alone.  I began to suspect that I might have made an error in judgment the first night I spent in my own apartment.  There it all was... my Lonaberger Baskets, the best of my wall groupings from Home Interiors ( I painstakingly picked out each and every piece and designed the groupings myself), the comforter from our bed with the matching pillow shams, sheets and dust ruffle (his new girlfriend was NOT going to sleep on MY comforter), my collectors plates from the Bradford Exchange,  the movie camera, all the silk flowers and plants, the 2 pictures of the Eiffel Tower hand painted by "Starving Artists" in Mexico, all our photo albums, the side by side refrigerator freezer with ice maker and water dispenser (and all the magnets that were on it except for the police ones I didn't want), and my most prized possessions, every single Christmas Decoration we ever owned.  We had over $5000 worth of them and I wasn't going to let him have one single wreath, candle or bow.  It started to dawn on me that I didn't have a bed to sleep on or a couch to sit on.  I had no dishes, silverware, pots or pans, no kitchen set, washer or dryer, no TV, VCR or stereo.  I didn't even have any lamps.  So as I lay there on the floor, pulling my comforter around me and watching the lights twinkle on my mini Christmas tree, it wasn't long before I realized that my ex-husband would always have possession of the only balls I truly wanted to see hanging from that tree.

 

 

14 comments:

readmereadyou said...

Oh, I know just how you felt. When a husband cheats and destroys a family, it's a horrible, angry feeling. (but I admit to laughing at that last line and I'm sure you do too now). : )

iitimothy316 said...

I have to agree - that last line says it ALL!!

tthebone said...

You say you have a new boyfriend that you are living with. Well you need to appreciate the guy you have and let all this anger go. Because I am afraid if you don't you are going to lose your new beginning. You are so lucky to have someone in your life, appreciate it and let all that anger and deep pain GO. You have just started a new journey in this crazy life we live everyday. Take the good and appreciate every little thing about it and let all the rest go!!!

lotzamoe said...

What the hell kinda comment is that below mine? Divorce gave me the will to live for revenge. Like I've always said, the best way to see your ex is through the scope of a sniper rifle.

redhdka said...

Oh my.......I would have done the same exact thing. LOL about the balls. and please delete the moron! I love you!

bridgetteleigh75 said...

When something this momentous happens in your life...I think it NEEDS to be talked about, written about, and mulled over. The fact you can do this in a humorous light, tells me you're over it. I enjoy the dry wit you use to discuss your ex's balls. LOL

XO ~ Bridgett

babygsmommy said...

LOL!! You hit the nail on the head today! Even though you have begun a new "chapter" in your life, this is all a part of you. I appreciate the humor you pull out of it and look forward to each new, awesome entry! See you tomorrow! Heather http://journals.aol.com/babygsmommy/Buildingadream

july171995 said...

Congrats on making the #1 spot! Keep up the great work!!
~Dana

mistressluvs said...

I hope this woman knows she has a talent for writing.

foxyblondlady11 said...

You are one very talented lady!

mzfinelady said...

I HAVE BEEN IN YOUR SHOES. WHEN I REALIZED,I WASNT SURROUNDED BY COLOR, MUSIC, ANY COMFORTING ENERGY, I HAD TO LOOK AT MY SELF, AND I REALIZED HOW MUCH TIME AND MONEY I HAD WASTED, WHEN I SHOULD HAVE BEEN LIVING.FILLING UP YOUR LIFE WITH STUFF IS NOT LIVING, YOU WERE MOURNING YOUR OLD LIFE.I GOT OVER MY SELF DID YOU?

barbpinion said...

ISN'T THAT THE WAY IT ALWAYS IS? I AM ENTERING THAT SPOT SHORTLY AFTER 30 YEARS. TOTAL DEVESTATION HERE, OVERWHELING SADNESS. WHEN IT GETS TOO TOUGH I TELL MYSELF, 'I CAME INTO THE WORLD WITH NOTHING..AND WILL LEAVE IT THE SAME WAY. TRULY LOVE YOUR JOURNAL & WISH YOU WELL.
BARB- http://journals.aol.com/barbpinion/BOTHSIDESOFTHECOIN?

sexyphillybabe10 said...

I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN! HANG IN THERE, MY SISTER, IT DOES GET BETTER!

s0ngbird1962 said...

Incredible journal here....truly